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Wine
glass falls, no warning wine takes over the table I smile from a distance Continue reading
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Break that façade
The dizziness and chest pain came back today. I actually fell asleep at my desk like my body just decided it was done for the day. I managed to drive myself home and basically crashed the second I walked through the door. When I woke up, this phrase was sitting in my head like it… Continue reading
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Wow
Met with my psychiatrist today and told her about the ER visit after I fainted in the shower.She looked at me and said something that kind of stopped me in my tracks. “Your body is telling you to slow down… NOW. If you don’t find time to decompress or relax, you will cut your life… Continue reading
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Bones
I am exhausted, but with exhaustion comes realizations…. at least for me. I don’t want to punish my body. My bones, my genes, and my aging body for not being “ideal.” There is no ideal. I am naturally made and living in a society and culture that demands perfection.Why was I was conditioned to hate… Continue reading
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Blinders
Blinders on my eyes World fades, only goal remains Noise drifts with the wind Continue reading
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Meditative Sunday
I woke up this morning without my cell phone. My dog climbed on top of me, curled up, and fell asleep. When he woke, he gave me kisses on the cheek and just snuggled close. We lay there together, listening to the birds outside, and I couldn’t believe how clearly I could hear them singing.… Continue reading
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When Your Body Says “Enough”
I’ve always been the one preaching self-care. Drink water. Get sleep. Set boundaries. Put the phone down. Don’t let stress run your life. I say these things easily. Confidently. Convincingly. But lately? I haven’t been living them. A few days ago, I fainted in the shower and ended up in the emergency room. Three days… Continue reading
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I Asked AI to Analyze My “Type” and It Low Key Read Me Perfectly
So this started as a curiosity experiment and turned into a full on mirror. I uploaded a bunch of photos of male celebrities I find attractive. Actors, comedians, writers, and musicians. You know, the usual suspects. I asked AI a simple question: Do I have a type? I expected something vague like “you like smart… Continue reading
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Why Color Speaks to Me
I don’t know why color and sunlight speak to me the way they do. I’ve tried to put it into words a million times, and I never get it right, because it’s not really something you can explain. It’s something you feel. It’s in your chest, your spine, and the way your skin tingles when… Continue reading
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Rain In My Bones
I try. I shape myself into what I imagine will fit, polish the edges, tuck the jagged corners, paint over the restless cracks that betray how much I want, how much I reach. I bend and stretch, a puzzle twisted and untwisted, a melody played out of key just to be heard. And yet here… Continue reading
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I Carry Her With Me
I keep thinking about my mom and how hard she worked, how little she was ever given in return, and how unfair it all seems. She made minimum wage her entire life and worked her ass to the bone. She never had opportunities and she never had the chance to retire. My started over when… Continue reading
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This Is What I Want
This is all I want. It is the one thing I’m truly striving for. Not success in the way it’s usually measured. Not productivity for the sake of proving something. Not more noise, more pressure, or more performance. What I want goes deeper than meditation, deeper than “self-care,” deeper than a few calm moments carved… Continue reading
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Happy New Year!
Happy New Year, everyone. I wish I was coming into this year feeling refreshed and energized, but if I’m being completely honest, I am soooo exhausted. Like deeply, fully drained. Tomorrow is Friday and I still have three more days before I go back to work and officially start my new job as an adjunct… Continue reading
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Pinch Me
I still can’t believe it. I mean that literally. I’m a college professor now. The word professor is actually in my job title and every single time I see it, my brain short circuits. I stare at it. I reread it. I wait for someone to tell me there’s been a mistake. Because surely they… Continue reading
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